Sweet Dreams With Feather And Down

Hello Everyone,

I hope you are all well & having a good week.

Previously I have posted a couple of times about a brand called Feather & Down.

Feather & Down sell a range of products such as bath, body & home fragrances which were created to help us to sleep. Their products are blended with lavender & chamomile as these have calming ingredients to help relax the mind & help the body to unwind. All to help give a restful night sleep. Not only that but they are made in England. Which as you know I love supporting British brands!

However recently they have brought out 4 brand products! They have extended their best sellers & brought out a breathe well pillow spray & breathe well bath essence. Which helps to encourage a restful nights sleep. The products contain eucalyptus, peppermint & tea tree to give it that breathe cool & well sense. They are also blended with Lavender & Chamomile oils to help aid relaxation. 

The other new products they have brought out are a travel set which includes the popular pillow spray which was crowned the best new health & wellbeing product at the beauty awards with OK in 2017, plus a mini melting shower cream, a new relaxing roller ball & mini sleep butter. Which all come in a sealed clear bag, perfect for travelling!

Then lastly is the new perfect partners set which includes a duo of the hero pillow spray & relaxing roller ball. Which again is ideal for your hand luggage when travelling. 

The two products I got to try were my favourite ones from the last products of their's that I tried:

Breathe Well Pillow Spray *

*Spray it on your pillow & let it help aid you to a better nights sleep

Breathe Well Bath Essence*

*Pour an amount into a relaxing bath & let it help you get that better nights sleep

You can find Feather & Down products at:

Boots - Feather & Down

Feather & Down

Take Care,

Love Lottie xox

*These items were gifted products to me to try & review from a PR company.

Salon Science Hair Care

19:14pm
Good Evening everyone!
I hope you are all having a fab week so far! I cannot believe we are half way through the week already! This week is going so fast! & I am also lucky enough to be off work next week too as I had holiday to use up.

Today in the post I received a lovely package from Salon Science. Which offer a range of hair care products. From helping with  hair growth, radiance, hydration & other issues. So any issues you have with your hair they do something that helps. I have heard of the brand before but I will be honest I haven't tried any of their products.

When it comes to shampoo's & conditioners I do often have to change what I have because if I use the same brand for too long it stops becoming effective on my hair & just tends to make it feels greasy & unpleasant. Then it just feels like you had need not of bothered washing it. Is that just my hair or is anyone else like that?

For anyone that has followed my blog for a while, well mostly from the start or on some previous posts they would know that I have openly spoken about my battle with depression & anxiety. Which is now under control but obviously like any other human being I do have my off dark days. But not only that now I seem to suffer from a condition called Trichotillomania. For those of you who don't know what this is it is an impulse-control disorder, a psychological condition where the person is unable to stop themselves carrying out a particular action. So they pull out their hair or eyelashes, eyebrows or something. But for me mine is my hair. I cannot tell you why I do it but I do. It has become such a habit that I cannot get out & it also made me feel self conscious about my hair.  Because it places it doesn't seem to grow as well as maybe it does in other places. At times I don't even know I'm doing it, I just sit then & start doing it. It's such a horrible thing to have & try & get out of. I have found it to be more of a common thing that people now open up about. Even Sam Faiers opened up about her issue with the condition which made her pull out her eye lashes. So I know I am not alone when it comes to suffering from this but I just wish there was a way of stopping myself! I think it started when at primary school & I went through a stage of being bullied & I started doing it but at that point it was really bad to the point I'd pull out clumps of hair & be left with bald patches so I'd have to have a different parting to cover it. It was at that point my mum took me to the doctors. It stopped for a while but over the years it has come back but as extreme as it was! 

So because of this I need to give my hair all the nutrients & help it can get to be healthy, strong & help it grow in anyway I can. So the range from Salon science is the Proaccelerant treatment range. This range helps encourage hair growth, helps reduce hair loss, restores your hair to help it be stronger & healthier & helps make your hair thicker & fuller in 3 months. So these things are all the ideal things I need. I have never actually purchased a hair range targeted at hair loss & encouraging hair growth before so I am excited to see the results of this range. 


I have got the shampoo, conditioner & also treatment which comes in two bottles. You apply the treatment to dry or towel dried hair twice a day. You apply the nozzle directly to the scalp & apply the treatment in sections. You have to ensure the scalp is covered,  then massage it into the scalp to help stimulate the circulation. Then you simply leave it in. 

All of Salon Science ranges can be purchased from your local boots or boots online. 

I will be sure to keep you posted on how I get on with the hair care range. It could be a great help to help my hair. But for those of you who suffer from Trichotillomania don't feel ashamed! You aren't the only one to suffer from it & you certainly won't be the last. But just try to keep busy as I find that helps. The less time I have to just sit there or when I'm around people I tend not to do it. But if you do feel like you can't discuss it with others & you want advice or to talk about it just contact me through Instagram: lottiejessica & I am always happy to talk about it if you have any questions or whatever. I used to be ashamed of my issues but over time I think I have just got more open about it because it's more common than you think. 

If you want to find out more about Salon Science check out their website: 
http://www.salonscience.com

Or if you want to find out more about Trichotillomania visit: 
http://www.nhs.uk/conditions/trichotillomania/Pages/introduction.aspx


Take care 
Love Lottie xox 

That little pick me up

21:11pm
Good Evening everyone! 
So we have got the dreaded Monday over with! We all know how that feels don't we at the start of the week. Monday blues kick in. 

I've always been a fan of box deliveries so like glossybox, birchbox & things but recently I've come across another type of box I didn't know you could get for us ladies. Which is a beauty, that time of the month & wellbeing subscription box service. I never knew such things existed until I come across Ms Flow. 

Ms flow is a premium monthly wellness & beauty subscription service. Each month you get a luxury pamper package arrive to your front door with all the essentials you need to get you through that dreaded time of the month. You get a choice of tampons or towels, & also little treats to help your cravings & also beauty products to help you feel better in yourself. To me I think I this is such a good idea! 

When my package arrived I couldn't wait to see what was inside! It's such a surprise as to what you are going to get but it is all so perfectly wrapped up & presented. 

I opened my box up to find: 

-Time bomb - Hand to hand combat hand cream 
-Yogi Organic Tea bag - Bedtime 
-Drinking fudge (Hot chocolate) 
-Birch Lea - Orange & Rosemary bath salts 
-Mimosa & Mandarin candle 
-The herb garden - Relaxing massage bar
-Bella Pierre cosmetics- Champagne eye shadow 
-Jelly Beans - Assorted flavours 
-Divine -Caramel milk chocolate bar 
-Bag of towels & tampons

All those things are things you want when your feeling rubbish, you've had a bad day, feeling under the weather or anything. You open the little box & have all those items to help make you feel better! 

Take a long soak in the bath, have a hot chocolate, eat some chocolate & sweets while watching a film. Burning the candle, & have a relaxing tea before bed. How perfect is that package to chill you out & have all that to hand ready for that time when you need it? Now I know that every month I will be sent a package for me when I really need it. 

Plus if you sign up before the 31st October you can receive 20% off your first order! 
Use the code: SPECIAL20 

You can find them on Instagram: ms_flow_
Website: www.msflow.co.uk

I know next time I won't have to worry because I will have my feel better special package. 

Have a lovely evening 

Take care 
Love Lottie xox 

One of those times....

19:28pm

Hello everyone! 
Hope you all had a lovely bank holiday weekend. 
Mine wasn't too bad I have to say. I managed to keep myself busy & try & preoccupy my mind. As always it worked for a while & at moments but not all the time. Even then my mind still has its way of taking over & thinking over time. I wish I was just able to switch off but sadly I'm one of those people who is not at all able to do that. I really struggle with it, I end up letting it take over my everyday & in the end the thoughts eat away at me. I've never been one to just drop it & leave it & move on. I always end up pondering over it so what more than others. I guess you found say I suffer from it alot. I'm the one who then ends up hurting more. But sadly that's something I don't think will ever change not now. You cannot always train your brain to be how you want it to be. 

Over the weekend one of my best friends Danielle  & I decided a while back that we would go somewhere picturesque & take my proper SLR camera & take some pictures. Let's face it I love taking pictures. I am abit of a sucker for photography & just love snapping away. So we went to a woods near ours & gave it a go. We found a spot where no on lookers would disturb us & keep walking by when we were trying to take pictures. We found the perfect spot for natural lightening coming through the trees & gave it ago. Now I'm not blowing my own trumpet but the pictures turned out to be amazing! I was so very happy with them. At first we were both abit uncomfortable & didn't really know how to sit, or stand or anything but after a while we both got into it & the end results show that! I could not believe how much I loved them. I am not normally one to like pictures of myself but these are just simple but effective & also natural. You will have to let me know your thoughts on these okay? These are the ones Danielle took of me....

It may have not been the best day to pick to do it. It was rather hot & clammy but we still did it & im glad we did! Definitely shall be doing an Autumn shoot that's for sure! Cannot wait for that! 

For anyone that wants to know my jumpsuit was from new look this was brought like last year. I love jumpsuits & playsuits recently! They are so comfy to wear & some can be worn as causal or you can dress them up. My choker is from boohoo which is my favourite one at the moment. 

Anyway hope you're having a good week! 

Love Lottie xox

Love a face mask!

19:06pm
Hello everyone! 
I hope you're all having a good week! Half way through now then it's the last bank holiday weekend before Christmas. I'm not really too sure how I feel about that. I swear I've blinked & this year has gone past. 

Anyway recently I've discovered a new thing I want to share with you all! 
I love facial products & love trying new things on my skin. Especially as sometimes I can have pretty troubled skin. So when I find a product I love I do tend to stick with it because using the wrong product it can make my skin have a break out & I definitely do not want that if I can help it! 

Garnier have recently brought out a tissue mask. I have used one of these before, I received one in a birch box a while back & I tried it & I have to say it was a pretty weird thing. For those of you who don't know what they are it is like what it says a mask made out of like a material abit stronger than your normal tissue & it has cut outs of the eyes, lips & nostril area. You line these areas up with your face & place the mask on your face. While the mask it full of moisture & helps hydrate your skin. 

The one I picked up was Garnier - Moisture bomb tissue mask - Super Hydrating revitalising mask. 
I got these from boots on special at the moment for just £1! Bargain! 
The pack contains one mask & no they are not reusable! 
1 mask is meant to equal 1 week of hydrating serum. 
I brought two packs because I thought just trying it for myself once won't make much difference. 
I wouldn't say I have really dry skin but in some places I do get dry areas so I thought this could help. 

When picking the mask out of the packet I was surprised at just how much moisture the mask had on it. It felt so full of product! 
*You simply take the mask out of the pack
*Unfold the mask carefully
*Apply the White tissue to your clean skin making sure the blue film is facing outwards 
*Smooth the mask gently down on your skin 
*Remove the protective film & dispose of it 
*Leave the mask on for 15 minutes 
*When removing the mask massage in any excess serum or use a cotton pad to remove 

After I removed the mask my skin felt very hydrated. I had a little bit of excess serum left so I massaged it into my face rather than removing it. Why waste the product? That night my skin felt so soft & clean. I definitely felt it was a great pick me up for my skin. Especially in this hot weather! 

So they are definitely worth the money! I would definitely use these again! I have seen in different countries they do more than one type but in my local boots I could only find this one. So I'm not sure whether there will be more different ones to come. But if there is I definitely look forward to that. 
They may also look weird when you are sitting with it on but try not to let too many people that. You may give them a fright! 

But if you suffer from dry skin or love a face mask definitely try these. 

Have a good evening!
Love Lottie xox

When you miss them...

22:38pm 
I guess you could say weekends are the worst. The worst for thinking time & those worries to surface. All week they seem to stay at bay but the minute you are away from work & have any time to yourself they seem to hit you like a bus. You can't help but question what they are doing, or who they are with even though you know in your own mind you have no right to say so.

 You know you can't mention that feeling or thought to anyone because they will think the same as the rest of it, "it is what it is" let it be. But that's easy for someone to say when they aren't the ones left with those feelings & emotions in their heads. They aren't the ones who have to question everyday went happened, what did you do wrong? why did they do what they did? But thing is now I guess you will never know. If someone blocks you, pretends like you don't exist & like nothing even happened what can you do? Nothing... You just have to try & do the same & carry on like nothing happened but... It's not that simple. You actually liked them, they actually made you feel content & happy & that's something you haven't had in such a long time especially with the recent dark times you have suffered. So to let someone in is a rarity. You thought they were different & over time you actually cared about them & their wellbeing so much you'd actually do anything to keep them in your life & to have them back & fix what went wrong. 

To others you now show or try to show you don't care. Life is good without them & you carry on about your everyday but inside you want to scream & fight your way back to that person. Because you miss them like hell. You miss their laugh,voice, cuddles, kisses, holding their hand & waking up next to them. Just seeing them makes your day & being around them makes you feel so content & at ease. Around them you feel comfortable. It just makes sense. That's the kind of thing in your eyes you shouldn't just give up on & throw away but there is only so much you can try with someone. No matter how much you want to fight for them you just can't go on that way forever. But when someone just gives up on you for no reason what do you do? Because that hurts like hell. 

Missing someone is the hardest thing. It's the longing for someone & wanting to see them. But it's worse when you know you won't anymore & someone else might be getting to. You find yourself listening to the songs they liked & sung just because it reminds you of them, or watching the programmes you watched together just because it was with them. You can't help but have everything remind you of them. 

Life is unfair & you never get what you want. 

You have to hope things change over time & he will come back. Whatever's meant to be will find its way. But whatever happens don't lose faith.

Love Lottie xox

To all those who never got that "sorry"

22:19pm

I'm sorry, I'm sorry for pain & hurt they put you through. For the amount of tears you cried for them only to find they were not phased in the slightest about you. I'm sorry they made you question all the times you had together. All those moments that to you were happy moments but now you only see as sad. You question their feelings & actions but worst of all they got you questioning your worth. No one should make you feel that. Those moments where you feel so insignificant. 

I'm sorry for the time you spent on them even though to you time with them was the best thing because moments with them made you happy. But not the time you spent wondering what you had done to be ignored, made to feel like crap & the time you spent your tears on them. 

I'm sorry they become selfish while you was always so giving & caring towards them. You couldn't of done enough for them. Don't ever question them. For once it is true it is them & not you. So please believe it! I'm sorry they ended up putting themselves before you & seemed to forget about your existence & that funny enough you have feelings...

I'm sorry you're now left with all those reminders of them. The songs, the television programmes, the films, the food, all those things that you see as now a reminder of them that to others means nothing but to you so much. 

I'm sorry you let your guard down. That you let them in & that you cared for someone who didn't seem to care about you or at least didn't when they hurt you. 

I know you're looking for answers to your questions but rarely do you get them. You can rattle your brain & drive yourself crazy but you will never know those answers unless they open up to you & if they choose to block you out then there is just no way. You can spend your time going over & over it in your mind but unless they tell you there truly is no logic to what they did. They probably don't ever know themselves why they did what they did.

Just remember NO you didn't deserve it! No one deserves that. The pain you felt was real & in time it will heal. It will take time but remember there is no time limit to it. It may take weeks, months, or even years but either way there is nothing wrong with that. Everyone heals differently & no person is the same. There is no right, there is no wrong. I know a connection is never easily just forgotten... You do what you have to do & remember you are never alone. You will always have someone right by your side. Believe them when they say they do understand because chances are they have been through something similar & someone made them feel just like you do now... So surround yourselves with those true friends, your caring family members & just remember no matter what you will never be alone. Even at times when you feel so alone you never are. 

So remain as strong as you can. Do those things that make you smile everyday even if it's just for a short space of time. Spend time with your loved ones, don't shut yourself away from them. Hiding away doesn't help you. It just makes you feel more withdrawn from the world. Do things that you can channel your emotions into don't ever bottle things up. There is nothing more unhealthy than not talking about things & shutting yourself off. 

More importantly remember you are beautiful & don't ever let yourself or anyone else tell you any different.

"& once the storm is over you won't remember how you it made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out the storm you won't be the same person that walked in." 

Love Lottie xox

Dear you....

19:53pm 

Dear you, 
Where have you run away to? Wherever you are please can I run to you in order to find you? Because without having you around my everyday just isn't the same. 
People can say how can something so short effect you so so much, how can you become attached to someone so fast. The answer is because it is you...

You was the person that appeared in my life out of the blue when I at least expected it. After recently getting myself back from a dark place you walked in & I fell. Just when I wasn't looking for anyone you showed me that I do, I need & want you around. 

Then as quick as you entered my life it was like you wanted to leave. Just when things were going so well it come crashing down on me. You changed. You turned into a person I didn't recognise anymore. I protected you from other people & their thoughts & opinions of the whole thing & never once did I listen to people when they said there isn't something right about this. Maybe I needed to listen but as always I followed my own heart & we know where that lead....

It was like someone switched a switch on you & one click of that switch & you changed your mind on the whole thing. It wasn't what you needed at the moment & that was that. No room for discussion, no explanation & to me that's the worst thing anyone can ever do. Wanting to leave but yet not give a valid explanation as to why? I think since that day I've drove my mind crazy trying to work out why & what did I do? But I guess that's something not even you seem to know it seems. You'd never let on & always run when the going got tough. For once I just wanted someone to be honest with me. But I guess that was too hard for you. 

People say someone who isn’t putting in the effort that you need from them, isn’t afraid of losing you. So why was I afraid of losing you? 

I could punch myself right now for how you've made me feel. For how insignificant I currently feel, how my mind is full of so many questions & confusion all that YOU caused me. But I will tell you the worst part the heartache. Letting myself become fond of a person who had no intention of wanting to stay & pursue it. The kind of pain that leaves another scar just like any other. The scar that I thought had healed when you entered only to find the wound being ripped back open over time....

When I told people about you I never left out how much you used to make me smile, just how content I felt around you, how comfortable & happy I was. 5 minutes in your company & my face could light up any room. That's just the effect you have. But I bet when you tell people about me you'll miss out all the good parts. You'll tell them how clingy, demanding, insecure & annoying I got at the end. But they'll never know the confusing things that went on & just how hot & cold you blew. That part you'll leave out won't you? 

I'm now left with even the smallest reminders of you. From songs, to food to places. Wherever I go there is a reminder. A constant reminder jumping out & hitting me in the face! 

I guess your needs were more important than mine & honesty was a tough thing. Honest answers I don't think I was ever going to get when you didn't even know yourself what was going on in your head. 

I guess I never should of let you in & let my guard down so soon. I never should of been so content so soon but that's just how you made me feel & that I could not change. But my problem is I care too much. Way too much. I know I have a good heart & that sometimes can be my weakness. But it doesn't mean people should punish me for it. 

I hoped & prayed that things would change & that you'd soon realise but you didn't. You just pushed me away more & walked away without a care. I don't think you realise just how this feels & you're lucky to not have to know. But you wouldn't because you just don't care enough about me like I do you & I guess that's just the thing. 

I question was our good times even real? Were those all fake smiles? Fake laughs? Were you pretending all those times we were together to be happy around me? To be happy in my company? To be told it feels like we've known each other longer I would say you was but maybe I'm wrong. Right now I don't know what's real & what's not.... 

When you're alone & you've got no one with you just remember how 
things were. How someone actually cared about you, tried to put you first, enjoyed your company, tried to make you happy & I can promise you no one will fit that bill more than me. But for you I guess it 
was just too much, too suffocating....


Love Lottie xox

A little bit of life

Sometimes you say things you dont mean,You argue with the ones you truly care about & wouldnt want to even begin to imagine your life without them.You drive away the ones you cherish & adore by sometimes becoming to needy towards them.With some they become like a comfort zone to you.You perhapes rely on them too much & get used to having them there to talk to everyday.Someone to make you smile.Make you laugh.Someone you hear from &  just by talking to them it brightens up your day.There voice is comforting to hear even if they are miles away cos at that momment it seems like they couldnt be any closer to you.They can be the people that perhapes you once shared a unique closeness to but in which in time you only had it fall apart & from that momment in time everything changed the way in which things appeared.
It's from that momment that you learned that:

-Promises can be made & not always stuck too.They shouldnt be made if they arent intended to be
carried out but also just try to remember loved intentions are always the best ones even if at
the time you dont see it like that,even if they do end up broken.Those intentions came from a 
good place & were meant for the best even if they dont seem clear to us at that momment in time.
People are only human & everyone makes mistakes no one in this life is pixie-perfect.

-Learn to NEVER take anyone for granted & try to hold them close cos to lose them & set them free would mean a dramatic change in life & its ways.

-You can be hurt by someone badly more than once but never anytime does it get easier or any less painful.Its something that can seem unbearable at that time &  makes you feel as though things wont be the same between you again.But times a healer & things do get better in time even if at the time you cant even begin to see that.Time is perhapes one of the worst things & gets you sometimes in thinking that you are just wasting precious time that you cannot get back but someone who is in which worth it will be worth wasting that time on thats just something you need to decide for yourself.Who is worth your precious time & who isnt? None the less remain positive & dont lose faith in the matter cos if you lose that little bit of faith then you have nothing.

-No matter what you are going through life carries on regardless & you have to learn to stand on your own two feet because if you rely on someone else & they leave you then you have to learn the hard way so its best to learn it for yourself while you go through life after all you can only trust yourself at times & only you know what is best for you.It can be hard to stand on your own two feet if you have always had people around for you to lean on but those who havent,havent been as fortunate as some.It's hard but whatever is easy in this life today?Nothing.

-Follow things in life & observe its teachings,true meanings &  lessons after all life is one big learning curve & an adventure.No-one gets out alive in this life so why take it too seriously?

-Learn from your mistakes & dont repeat them.

-Never take people for granted.Cherish the momments & memories that you in which shared with them.

-Never see someone perfectly cos there will come a time when they will only shatter that illusion.

-People can hurt you unintentionally or on purpose everyone has there ways some just choose to follow bad ways but they will hopefully begin to learn someday after all karma is a bitch & what goes around comes around.

-Surround yourself with people who geniuely care about you.Want to help guide you.Support you.Give you a hand to hold onto when you need it the most after all if the roles were reversed 
they'd want you at there side.The ones who show no care in the world are the "untrue" ones & ones who wont make your world go around.

-Things are NEVER easy & things never stay the same.Things change all the time we just never notice it or at times choose to over-look it.

-Missing that special person can be heartaching & take its toll on you.But absense only makes the heart grow stronger.You have to pace yourself after all whatevers meant to be will find a way <3 
Never give up hope & when you believe theres not even the smallest bit of hope remaining then thats the time to learn to let go its devasting but not a impossible task.

-Be weary who you give your heart too after all some just might take disadvantage of it but to some it wont be just another toy.

-You can learn alot from the ones you love & they also help you to grow as a person.So take every chance to tell the ones that you adore,cherish & think the world of what they mean to you cos you never know when it might be too late & they are no longer in your reach.

-You can sorry repeatedly but never does this always solve things.After all you can say sorry & not mean it.It can be overused & the word can lose its meaning that little bit more everytime.You have to learn that sorry cannot always fix things that are that badly damaged its the actions that you carry out with that word sorry that also add to its effect.

-Obstacles are put in your way to see if what you want is really worth fighting for.So you have to keep on fighting for what you want after all it shows people how much you truly want someone as you are prepared to do anything & not let anyone get in the way of what you want.

-Believe in karma cos people that do bad things should suffer the consquences & deserve to learn perhapes even more than others should.

-What you give & what you put into something is what you get returned.Okay it doesn't always work out like that as you can put everything into something & not get in back in return but the majority of the time whatever you put in you will get back out of something or someone. 

-You can't appreciate real love until you've been burned.Everyone goes through heartbreak in life &  it will always be more than once in which we feel it.Its a part of life sadly & no one can run from it cos where ever you try to run to it will always find you.

-Just because someone is beautiful doesn't mean they don't do ugly things. 
If your believe you arent pretty doesn't mean people don't think you have the beauty of a flower. 
Just because people are loud doesn't mean they dont hate silences. 
Just because people are quiet doesn't mean they dont have nothing to say. 
Just because people are happy all the time doesn't mean they never cry themselves to sleep. 
Just because people are unhappy doesn't mean they can never be happy again. 
Just because people think it'll never happen, it just might...

Love Lottie xo