Primark Haul

14:32pm
I love my designer brands but I also love a good primark haul! I love seeing what I can find in store. You can find so much sometimes in every section of the store. They always do lovely accessories. The jewellery section I always have to have a good look through. All the pieces are different & let's face it primark is amazingly priced! 

Recently I have found a love for the home section. They do such cute pieces. Which are not only quirky, but they are well priced & very with the season & fashion. I always seem to find something lately. I love candles I will admit I have a fair few in my bedroom. Whether they are scented or have quotes on them I have to have some in my room. 

I took myself to my local primark yesterday & was hoping I would find some lovely pieces & of course I did. I was abit disappointed on the limited amount of clothes there was though. I guess we are between seasons but needless to say I didn't find many at all. Well not anything that really caught my eye & I refuse to be buying jumpers yet! Way too early for that & I do not wish to tempt fate & the weather to suddenly get cold & horrible. 

At the moment I love the cold shoulder tops & these two I purchased I love the pattern & style of them. One of them is white with black stripes with long sleeves & the other a silky type material with a pattern to it. Definitely one of my favourite style of tops lately. 

Primark is always perfect for picking up those little bits & bobs you need like kirby grips. Boy I swear those things go missing all the time! I always seem to lose them. I don't know where they go. Or is that just me? Also the earrings I only really wear studs & you can get a pack of studs from them for a couple of pounds. Bargain especially if they go missing.

I know I did say earlier that I would not buy winter stuff yet but when I saw the scarf section I saw the cute fur Pom Pom hat & had to get another. I do already have two of these hats but I love the colour mustard & I thought this would be perfect for bad weather. 

To be honest I will say I have never really looked at the beauty section properly before but yesterday I did have a good look & I am so glad I did. I never realised how much stuff they do! I brought myself a cleansing pad. It's like a silicon pad you use to help scrub out the dirt & make up from your pores & help clean your skin deeply. Definitely a good beauty gadget to use with your cleanser to help give you clean skin. The other item I brought was a foundation blending sponge. Yes it is what it says a sponge. It's a soft sponge which does as it says helps blend your foundation better. I also picked up one of my favourite beauty product Garnier micellar water. I love this stuff it helps get the dirt out of your skin & leaves it feeling fresh! If you haven't tried it before you need to give it a go. You can see the dirt it removes on the cotton wool after wiping 
it away. 

The home section is brought myself two candles. I was toying with the idea of a cushion for my bed to add to my collection but to be 

honest I didn't think it would go so I didn't bother & talked myself 

out of it. Good girl! So anyone that knows me knows I do have a love of French Bulldogs & when I saw this cute candle I had to get one 

for my room. It's not going to be one I burn though I know that. 

It's way too good to burn. The other I got was a lovely aroma fragranced one. The other piece I got from the home section was a mug that reads "make dreams happen". I saw this mug on primark's Instagram & knew I had to try & purchase it. It's a positive quote which seems very fitting for me currently. So this was a must have. Plus I always love a mug I am tea obsessed. They all now look perfect with my room. I love it. 

Lastly I come to the shoe section. Dangerous for any girl I know. You can never have enough shoes. When I saw these shoes I thought they were super cute! I don't normally like really shiny things especially when it comes to shoes but the style of these shoes were different. The colour means they go with a lot so I will get use out of them so these were a must get. 

As you can see I definitely didn't do too badly! I got more little bits & bobs but all good purchases. 

Hope you have all had a good weekend! 

Love Lottie xox

Feels like home

20:18pm
Ever been in a place where you call home, all your family & friends are there to surround you & your in the comfort & security of your own home but there comes points in your life where you just want to run away & be as far away from the place you call home as possible. Your the kind of person who loves home & the feeling of warmth & the safety it brings but at the moment that's not what you want. You just want different surroundings & a change. Your not the kind of person who just drops everything & runs but at this moment in time running has never felt so appealing. You want to pack up a bag & go. Not go forever but just far enough so you miss what you have & just time away to clear your head. Pick a nice place, a place that feels homely, the seaside so you can feel the wind in your hair, let it blow away all those thoughts, those issues, watch the birds fly away & wish you was a bird so you could just fly away whenever you wanted. If only you had the wings to take flight & remove yourself wherever you wanted. You could remove yourself from places, situations, anything.

You get to the point you cannot even explain what's in your head & for you that's odd. You normally always have an answer for everything except this time you don't. But why? You wish you knew the answer to that then perhaps you could just get rid of that thought & work out what to do. Right now you really don't know the difference between the right & the wrong thing to do. No matter what there is not going to be some quick fix for this. It'd be easier if there was. Whatever you do it's not going to be straight forward, your going to struggle, going to hurt & most of all your going to want to give up.

Sometimes you like can't make a rational decision due to the million different thoughts & solutions you think of in your head. It just feels like your not in a sane mood to decide. Its bad to say that & you know you sound crazy but it's true. If you don't feel like your in a right place to make a decision right now then don't not while your heads not in it because then you'll decide wrong. You can have more than one option. At the end of the day they aren't the ones who have to face it everyday & just carry on. For those people it's fucking easy & they aren't the ones trying to adjust & block things out. To start off with you can block it all out but now slowly through all the cracks it's coming in & eats you up bit by bit.

Your tired, constantly drained from everything, fed up, confused & worst of all your not yourself anymore. That's the worse thing. Trying to find yourself again & bring you back but its going to take some time.

The frustrating thing is not knowing & be able to explain to people the things in your head. You feel like such a freak that you cant even describe. You don't sleep, you wake every few hours, you sound like such a weirdo. People say maybe you need to ask for help but you don't. You don't need people judging, discussing your life & making you out to be weird. It's hard cos people think your fine half the time but they don't see what your feeling in your head & how you actually feel. They'd be surprised. Half the time you just feel so alone & as if no one listens because they don't always show you the support or the interest or give you the time. You feel you sound just like a broken record & for that your sorry people have to listen to that.

Everyone has gone through something that changed them in a way that they could never go back to the person they once were.

love Lottie xox