How much do people really understand? That's a question that at the moment runs through my head quite alot. People act like they understand your situation but do they truly? I mean you can't understand something you haven't had the first hand of. You can't even begin to understand the thoughts & emotions someone has in their heads. You don't know what runs through their head everyday. The thoughts they think of when they first wake up to the last thought on their mind before they sleep. They lay their head down & you think it ends there but it doesn't. For them it's simply the beginning...the beginning of a long restless night of nothing but lack of sleep & constant thoughts & fidgeting. People don't see everything, to me they only see what they want to see. As long as they see that you're okay & you have a smile on your face they don't care. Even if that smile is a fake one just to make everyone else happy. What does it matter right? If it's not them with the constant battle with everything in their head what does it matter?
Everyone else is moving on with their lives while I'm stuck here in this dark hole I can't climb out of. I'm not saying I'm not happy for others I'm just sick to death of nothing going right for me & having to battle through everything in my head. Maybe one day soon that will change but for now it's something I guess I just have to deal with & try to cope with in some way.
Don't act like you understand because you don't. Don't act like your interested when you couldn't give a dam really. Don't act like you know what's going on because you don't. Don't pretend to know you know how I really feel because you far from have a clue. Maybe try taking a step back & asking how I truly do feel right now cos you'd be surprised. I'm the person who paints on a smile to others just to stop all those questions being asked. I'm the one smiling even with tears in my eyes because I'm the one that fights on no matter what happens.
So before you think you understand what goes on take a step back & look at the bigger picture. Because you really don't....
“As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others’ hearts. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you’ll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you’ve never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don’t be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.”
Love Lottie xox
P.S check out my latest cover & let me know what you think:
http://m.soundcloud.com/lottiejessica/lottie-one-only-cover
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