Hair care struggle

20:07pm 
Here we are at the start of a new week once again. I swear I blink & the weekends just disappear! 
Does anyone else feel like that, or is that just me? Then it's back to the Monday morning struggling to get out of bed & back to work. Well for me the Monday-Friday office job it certainly is. But I cannot complain getting weekends as my time. 

I think one thing I haven't ever blogged about before is hair care items. I have not once mentioned about products I use or like. I think there is a reason behind that, that no one actually really knows to be honest because it's not really something I don't think I've ever really spoken about to anyone but my family. But recently thanks to another blogger I have realised I'm not the only one to suffer from it....

For people that have read my blog, or know me know I have suffered from anxiety & depression for some time. It is nothing like it used to me months ago but at times I do struggle to come to terms with it & to me it's like a ticking time bomb I just don't know when it's going to happen again & it's going to reoccur. I've learnt how to deal with it & what to do to channel my thoughts into something else but it can still be difficult especially if things in my life seen a mess. But also from a young age (as long as I can remember,I think it was in primary school in fact)  I was bullied. From that day it first started I started pulling my hair out so bad I used to pull clumps of hair out in stress. My mum took me to the doctors & I was given a cream to help make it regrown & I had to wear my hair in a different parting to cover up the patch of hair missing. My hair did regrown but since then I have seemed to have struggled in leaving my hair alone & I do admit I pull strands of it out. It is called Trichotillomania, which is an impulse-control disorder, a psychological condition where the person is unable to stop themselves carrying out a particular action. I think that is why now my hair takes so long to grow & is shorter on one side. It's such a bad habit to get into & also a hard one to stop. I cannot even tell you as to why I even do it I just do. I keep wanting to try & find something to stop it or find a shampoo which can help hair regrowth abit at least. I do not have patches missing I just struggle in my hair growing quickly due to the strain I've put on my hair. So I guess that is why I don't really speak of hair care stuff at all. Because I do not really like my hair & also the struggle of Trichotillomania is pretty embarrassing to admit. Because I just feel it's something else people will think I'm odd for & abit of a freak. But I guess these things need to be spoken of in order to help. 

I love the find a good shampoo & conditioner. I have tried out several brands before & yes I do change my shampoo & conditioner often because if I use the same one too often for too long it makes my hair start going greasy & it seems to stop helping my hair & just makes it feel disgusting! 

I have before come across a brand OGX, I used the argan oil of Morocco after coming across it in boots on a 3 for 2 offer. I had never used argan oil before but it made my hair feel so soft & clean after. I also have pretty wavy, thick, wirey feel hair. The slightest bit of moisture in the air & that's it my hair goes poofy & no longer stays straight after straightening it. It can be so very annoying! Especially after spending so long on it. But this shampoo helped keep it less frizzy & also made it easier after blow drying it not to feel so full & thick. So recently as my hair is pretty dry I have come across another from the OGX range - Coconut water. I'm not a fan of coconut to eat but that smell of it I do not mind. 
I got the shampoo, conditioner & also hydrating oil. All in the coconut water range. The coconut water is meant to help rehydrate & supercharge your hair to transform dry, parched hair into silky, shiny perfection! So this sounds perfect to try & rehydrate my hair! 
I cannot wait to get trying this! The shampoo & conditioner you as you normally would any other, & the hydration oil you spray on damp hair after you have washed it, ensuring you spray it evenly & then blow dry. You can also spray a mist all over after to help add shine to your hair. 

I shall definitely keep you posted on how it does to my hair! 
Is there anyone else who suffers with Trichotillomania? If so have you got any tips how you cope or what shampoo you use if it is a special one? 

Take care, 
Love Lottie 
xox

What Makes A Friend...My Light In The Dark

19:49pm

Friendship is one of the most important things in our lives and  Huggle  has asked me to make a list/write about what I think makes a good friend. Huggle is a social app which helps you to discover and connect with people who go to the places you go. It’s a wonderful app for making friends and meeting like-minded people. You can download it here."

To me friendship is something we cannot live without! At times people say I'm okay on my own but truth is none of us actually are okay on our own no matter how much of a strong person you are at times in your life you always need your friends & family. No matter how stubborn you are & I am one stubborn person myself. 

Friendship is a two way thing. If there is only one person working on the friendship then it will never work. In my eyes you both have to put effort in, in order for the friendship to remain & grow. After all what's the point wasting time on someone who isn't prepared to put the effort in for you? 

To me my friends have always played such a huge part in my life & I truly feel blessed to have the friends that I do. I wouldn't say I have a huge network of friends but the ones I do have are the best support structure & best people I could ask for. To me my friends are not just my friends but my girls feel like more sisters to me. That's the way friendship should be. An extended family. 

At times my friends are tested. Especially in the past. I'm not ashamed to admit but some months ago I went through a very dark place. I suffered terribly with severe depression & severe anxiety & yes I admit when I go through those phases I can be a nightmare & often require extra support. I had to have time away from work to get myself back on track & also went through counselling & therapy to get myself back to a suitable place. Through those months not once did my friends turn their backs on me. Through every dark moment, struggle, hardship, tears, argument, screams they all took my hand & helped guide me along the path back to normality. They all, each & everyone brought me back to the light. For that I cannot thank them enough because without them I don't know what I would of done. Any moment of the day or even night they were there to pick me back up & let me know it was going to be okay when I thought it wasn't going to be. They would spend time with me to occupy me, sit with me in silence if I needed to, anything just so I knew I wasn't alone & that's important because in that selfish, dark place you forever feel all alone even when you aren't. 

I owe lot to my friends, because to me they are my rocks & that's an important part of friendship. Having someone to lean on & hold your hand when you need that someone to help get you through. Having such a strong support structure is what helped get me through & that's one of the blessings of friendships. Even through those moments they never once judge you or turn their backs on you when some people do. A true friend is someone you can truly trust.


Spending time with friends & doing the things you love. Having quality time together are those moments you will forever treasure. Because they are the moments 
no matter what happens people cannot take away from you. Never forget that. They are the moments friends make you laugh even when you want to cry. They make you smile & laugh uncontrollable amounts. 

People may all have a different definition of friendship but to me friends are like an extended family. Your support structure, the people who make you laugh but can at times make you cry, they are your rock, your pick me ups, your sisters, your blessings, your comfort zones, your best memories are made with these people, these are your life... 

So never ever take them for granted, 
Be sure to tell them how much you 
appreciate them & once you find those amazing friends never let them go! 

Remember never take those true ones for granted. 

I'd love to hear your thoughts & what you think 
makes a good friend. 

Take care 
Love Lottie xox